For those who knew me, crushing on someone is one of my things. I can go crazy over someone if the person fits the criteria I set for the one I want to be with, even if I never said a word or even be in actual contact with the person. With that being told, at the moment, I do like someone and I think I am having quite a major crush on the person, although not as severe as the previous crush I had. The person fits the criteria well. Especially the cheekbones part. Yup, that is a fundamental aspect for someone to be my crush. High cheekbones are a must! Back to the story, the person looked a lot like many of my previous crush and not particularly that distinct. That is what we call taste people, hence the same look over and over again. Behavior-wise, the person is okie with a touch of snob. Just perfect. Haha. Well, that is all I can say about the person since I am not that close with the person. Here comes the weird part. The person knows about the whole situation. Okie, not that weird although I rarely ogle at the person clearly and when I do, I make sure it is extremely discreet. What? You cannot stalk at someone obviously. It is against the rule of stalking! But the weirdest part here is the person somehow tries to take control of me. Whenever we met, I will need to greet him and shake the hand. The person actually instructs me to do as such. It is as if we are something. What? Who gave you the right to control me just because I am crushing on you? You should just let me be because I do not want to be in your arms and be your ‘someone’. I just want to stay as a fan and that is it. Sheesh, some people just do not know the line that they should never cross.. Maybe some of you would think that maybe it is just common gestures or the person actually wants to be more than just a fan and a crush. But for me, it is beyond the boundary of comfort already and I am currently backing off. But to stumble upon each other or just to look at the person from a distant is just heart melting like usual.. haish, internal conflicts!
*scared but loving*
No comments:
Post a Comment